food for thought
as i fasted today, i feasted on this thought: will the frequency with which i write begin to wane, and when? i feel that i am headed to a place where the karma of writing will soon (and somehow) be resolved. there will be no more (new) thoughts to articulate and contribute, indeed no more to resolve. words will come from outside, and find their way through. nothing, i pray, will be generated from within.
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Well what's wrong with silence ;-)
How many times have you bought the first album of a musician and it was all that you could imagine it would be. So the next one, was it just a little less, or more than the first? and so on.
You know there are writers, famous ones too who wrote just one or two, and that was all they had to say.
So don't worry. Who are you letting down? or go of?
I don't know if you have ever heard of the Bahai Teachings but there is something in there I like, about a moment's Meditation being more valuable than large amount of insincere or at best, half-thought prayers.
thank you for visiting, edo. and for your thoughts.
there is no question about the value of silence (in my mind, i should add). that was even my intent with this post - to pray that the inner conflicts find resolution to the extent that there is just no more to say. silence is that ideal state, as i see it.
"there will be no more (new) thoughts to articulate and contribute, indeed no more to resolve." - That reminds me of our discussion about how it would be impossible to have no more books left in the world to read!! :)
I think it is impossible that there will come a time when you will have no more new thoughts! There will always be a new thought, or a combination of old thoughts, or a thought that is re-thought and is new because of the context it is thought in. Also, there will always be a new you, with new experiences that you hadn't had before. Thus, even an old thought in the new you's mind will not quite be the same old thought. I think it's like re-reading an old book you haven't read in a few years. I find the book always has a new angle, or a new meaning, and I could only see it now because of some experience since I last read the book!
Why do you pray for nothing to be generated from within? I am puzzled. What benefit will that provide to you, indeed anyone?
i agree with you, trb, wrt there always being new thoughts. but these days, i feel more and more, that while there is always something new about looking at things from a different perspective, it ties itself back to older, more encompassing threads that subsume everything.
and in one sense, it is true, i do not wish to ever stagnate in my perceptions of the world. and i would always want to encourage that 'new me' (as you put it - to manifest and grow - indeed, constantly.
what i do want, however, is to not let perceptions be colored by biases. i would like the world to go into me and come out of me unchanged - if that makes any sense.
it is really a yearning to have peace and acceptance in every step, rather than in moments here and there. like the 'moment of peace' post from this morning.
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