trust thy gut

i'm becoming quite the fan these days - of the gut. the more i place my faith in it, the more all-encompassing peace it brings. details aren't necessary, but there are varied decisions i've been at loggerheads with, in an attempt to attain clarity on my own inner self, on life... while looking for answers externally and trusting other people's guts was something i was wont to do, i began to find that that exercise was failing to satisfy, because it wasn't where the answers lay for me. this realization, when it hit me, was painful, because then i really was lost in darkness.

months of focused meditation and introspection later, i was able to dig out the gut from the many layers of the ego that had found their ways to drown out that deep inner voice. i no longer doubt, for a second, that all of the answers really do lie within, but reveal themselves to us when we have lived through the questions fully. it becomes a battle of faith and endurance, but eventually it is the gut that wins. and there is no sweeter victory than to find the inner voice make itself clear, when the forces of maya pull in all kinds of conflicting directions. i feel blessed for this find.

that voice is gentle and unconflicted. it is loving and stable. it is the voice of dharma, the voice of truth. and i am grateful that while all else may be ephemeral, this will stay with me always.